A collection of thoughts and voices that I need to not forget.
a thought I had today
“ Hey, remember, I told you to stop trying to put a glass on your mustard seedling to protect it. You don’t need to worry about protecting yourself because I’m already doing it for you, I have been doing it for forever, and I will be doing it for forever. ”
My Father
The end of the Silver Chair contained a scene in which Caspian X had passed away and was in the stream on Aslan’s Mountain, with the Lion Himself, Eustace, and Jill, looking down at him from the bank. And Eustace weeps. And Jill weeps.
And Aslan weeps. Lewis described his tears like solid diamonds falling, and he wept for Caspian.
But I realized that Aslan doesn’t weep only for Caspian. His tears like diamonds fall for us, for ME, God weeps for me, because He cares. And I’m not worthy of His tears.
Normally I despise myself for making other people cry, because it always feels like I’m hurting someone. And to make the Creator cry for me, well, I have feelings about it. I’m not worth His tears but He still weeps for me and cries with me.
What a God.
Something precious lost.
Pray pray pray pray pray.
One part found.
Pray pray pray pray. Brown.
Pray pray pray.
Another part found.
Pray.
Final part found.
Praise.
“ May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart, be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer. ”
Psalms 19:14
So I am at work and I am really really hungry because I only had a piece of toast and an apple for breakfast, which sounds like it would be enough but it actually seems like these things make me even MORE hungry so it was all bad for my tummy.
And then I think of “Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from God” and I also think “I had bread for breakfast this morning, but not the Word, so if I do have the Word, I will probably not be as hungry.”
Steph Mikamo suddenly posted a Brian and Katie Torwalt playlist on her blog and so I give it a listen and wow, it’s not really worship music, like church worship, it’s more like SOAKING music so I just sit at my desk and mindlessly sort through cage cards and focus on the music and it resonates with me and it keeps on doing it so that I sing along and now
I am not hungry.
Walking back from work today, the wind was kicking up in the most pleasant of ways and I was wearing my awesome new Green Lantern shirt and the sun was out and the sky was blue and it was bliss.
I’ve been getting a lot of songs in my head randomly prompted lately, and the one I was singing was No One Else out loud and one of the lines was “I was made to briiiing youuuu praaaaise” and in my head I was like, “hey Jesus, do you like this praise that I’m bringing you?” and suddenly I feel like “LOOK OVER THERE QUICK!”
So I whip my head around to the right and in the middle of that blue blue sky and these ADORABLE little fluffs of white clouds, cute cute cute cute, so cute all wispy and whimsical, and I almost choked.
THEY WERE SERIOUSLY THE CUTEST CLOUDS. GAH! BEST EVER.
“ You are blessed in order that you may be a blessing to others. I have given you a heart for love, and that love for others that you show is more powerful and beautiful than you may realize. I have given you an amazing gift; you are a beautiful, worthy daughter without having to do anything else! ”
God, via James Moore
